A night to remember

I attended the kings dinner which was very trying on my emotions. It seems as if a Mademoiselle who had some interests in my cousin Philippe. kept asking questions of his whereabouts. I had spent lots of time trying to avoid speaking with anyone about my family affairs and if I had to because the Royals wanted to speak about it. I was trying to be as vague as possible. This Mademoiselle was speaking about this in front of the king and comtesse du barry. I felt my anger build towards her but I was able to keep my composure without letting tears and anger overcome me. It seems the scandal has led to my body betraying me and my husband finding me in my apartments passed out before our dinner was about to begin. I wish he was not the one to find me. He is the sweetest man and very tender in his speech and his heart and to have him find me like that made me feel sad.His first beloved died during childbirth.I did not want to have him relive those moments. Eventually I had come to and wanted to hug him after seeing his eye red from the tears.

The dinner had began without the others knowing about what had happened earlier. I have to say this was the best part of the evening. The food was delicious and there was plenty for people to fill their appetites. Although the HRH the comte de provence missed the dinner. He was on time for dessert where I had served Tarte de Chocolate from my husbands and I favorite shop in Paris. As the night goes on the I had made the mistake of not telling the servers to stop giving my husband more wine.He wanted to make a announcement and in front of the Comte de provence and our guests. He told them that we are expecting although we had only been married for two weeks. I have already started to show and I know before the week is gone it should be all over court. Again I have put myself in scandal.


As the night went on I returned to my bedroom where I had mixed emotions but mostly worry. I watched my husband sleep the night drink away. I laid around and thought about the future that holds the destiny of my child and what will happen when he is younger. Will the scandal that is their birth haunt them...