Everything comes to a end

    This was a punishment of some sort. Tonight I embraced true love for the last time and how amazing  it was I should have known that it would end so quickly. I kissed him and caressed him tenderly while giving myself to love completely.Melting into puddles of  passion but how soon did they dry up to appear as if they never were there at all. I knew eventually this day would come where I would lose someone I love. I just did not want to face it but now I have no choice but to face everything that will soon come.   I embrace the one thing that can not be taken from me that is from him and I will cherish it because it was made from passionate intimacy.It was  made with love on my part on his part that I am not sure. I don't regret him because that means I would regret the child that lives within my womb but I do regret the hurt I caused many.

   I cry tears of hurt and pain because I have no choice but to move on from it. I think now to myself how do i repair this reputation that I have. How do I make it better before my child is born so that she will not know of the life that  I led before her.  Oh what a life it seemed to be at the time. Having the love of him;him being the first have my body and my heart. That is now the past though and I have to be the strong one in this if not for me...then for her