I have grieved for my cousin and did what her letter told me that I should and it is to be free of things that weighed me down. I have went to a convent to get spiritual guidence from the nuns and confessed all my sins that I have done and feel cleaned of them.I returned home to a beautiful dinner with some courtiers. My mother also had come for a visit and my brother and his soon to be fiancee. I was delighted to see my mother since it has been some years since I have seen her and the mood soon soured when my brothers fiancee came. She doesn't like me and for what I am not sure of. I feel as if it has something to do with my husband which seem weird that she would not like me because of something my husband did to her but that is on her heart not mine.
At this moment I put all my focus on my mother and my child that should be arriving in the coming months. I feel them move and it makes my heart to flutter to know that they live and thrive regardless of what is going on in the world outside of them. It makes me wonder should I take that kind of thinking into my daily life. Live and thrive regardless of the things that are said and done to me. I have shown though how I can come out of such horrid beginnings
I have become the lady in waiting to Her Royale Highness Victoire Lousie de France and it has been a glorious appointment that was given to me since it seemed as if everything in my world could have ruined me. I am greatful for the powers that be who smiled upon me and relieved me with such great things happening.
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